♥ Thursday, March 20, 2008
tue:
i forgt everyting tat has happened on tat day.
wed:
ytd. i tink ytd totally sucks. i thot i started my day right. until the last period of the day when i sae sth wrong and offended him. i was jus joking and he took it real hard. haiz. then i gt really scared, he's ok after tat but i wasnt and nt at all. i dun hav face to face him lar. i feel damn guilty and dunno wat to say to him. didnt expect him to forgive him so fast. haiz. on the way home on bus, i gt tis feeling again everytime when i gt real scared as in the feeling inside me and squeezed everyting tgt and make me feel breathless. gt the feelings the whole night. i dun even wan to go to sch today, coze i m really really scared. and i dunno how to face him. althot he sound ok and everyting, on the other side of the phone, i seriously dun feel good, seriously dun. everytime when i m nt tinking, the thot of tat will cum into my mind and the feelings will be thr. tried to do hw to washed the feelings away but in the end, i never did any of the hw. coze it simply doesnt help. played games till i slp.
thurs:
today. went to sch real late. wanted to eat mcd but ... no. haiz. went straight to hall. it was still early but i jus want to sit down, relax and do sum revision. then the rest came. i noe you are looking at me, i noe u r. but i jus cnt turned and looked at you coze the feelings inside me. all the while, u are looking at me, waiting for me to tok to you but i gt no face to look at you lar. sorry for making you sad as well. i seriously dun mean it. SORRY!
so aniwae, on a lighter note, we hav finally cum out with a play for achievement day within 2 days. great! and even finish doing the whole ting with my deary couple except the part with multimedia. shall try it out on mon. hope it is a success and everybody lyk it.
posted @ 8:06 PM